Thursday, October 10, 2013

On the Road Again....


Soooooo, I finally got the call back from the Perinatologist. He basically said, "there's nothing wrong with you" and all the tests came back "normal."  Is it horrible that I don't believe him!!?? I mean I'm happy that all the tests came back normal but I'm more frustrated than ever. Nothing is wrong with me. Absolutely nothing.

I called SuperDoc's office and am scheduled to go in next week for a preliminary ultrasound to get the whole process going again. I'm going to have SuperDoc go over the results with me. I should be excited but I'm really scared. I don't want to take the pills or the progesterone suppositories or the shots. I don't want to go off on my husband for five days due to Clomid crazies. I don't want to go through yet another two week wait of hell. I don't want my hope to lead to despair.

Boohoo....I wish I could stuff my face with something amazing but unfortunately I have no appetite.

:: fights the air::


  1. Drats! I mean not drats but drats! It's hard when there's nothing "wrong" but there's something wrong. It often feels easier if you're fighting something with a name.

    that all being said. I'll eat all the food for you. As a matter of fact I've already started. You're welcome.

    I'll keep praying. It's totally understandable to be scared. I wish I had magical word of wisdom, but I don't. One foot in front of the other, you can do this, you're strong enough. Okay maybe that was kind of wise :-)

  2. Bek, can you have some ribs, with mac and cheese and potato salad and collard greens for me?? Round that out with some ox tails and a vanilla milkshake and I'll be ever so grateful!

    I appreciate your prayers...I really need them, and your wise words, on the REAL. It's really hard for me to believe that there's nothing I can do to make things better the next time around. I'm so mistrustful of doctors and their tests and I can't help but feel like they're missing something..