Uggggghhhhhhh!
Soooooo, I finally got the call back from the Perinatologist. He basically said, "there's nothing wrong with you" and all the tests came back "normal." Is it horrible that I don't believe him!!?? I mean I'm happy that all the tests came back normal but I'm more frustrated than ever. Nothing is wrong with me. Absolutely nothing.
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I called SuperDoc's office and am scheduled to go in next week for a preliminary ultrasound to get the whole process going again. I'm going to have SuperDoc go over the results with me. I should be excited but I'm really scared. I don't want to take the pills or the progesterone suppositories or the shots. I don't want to go off on my husband for five days due to Clomid crazies. I don't want to go through yet another two week wait of hell. I don't want my hope to lead to despair.
Boohoo....I wish I could stuff my face with something amazing but unfortunately I have no appetite.
:: fights the air::
Drats! I mean not drats but drats! It's hard when there's nothing "wrong" but there's something wrong. It often feels easier if you're fighting something with a name.
ReplyDeletethat all being said. I'll eat all the food for you. As a matter of fact I've already started. You're welcome.
I'll keep praying. It's totally understandable to be scared. I wish I had magical word of wisdom, but I don't. One foot in front of the other, you can do this, you're strong enough. Okay maybe that was kind of wise :-)
Bek, can you have some ribs, with mac and cheese and potato salad and collard greens for me?? Round that out with some ox tails and a vanilla milkshake and I'll be ever so grateful!
ReplyDeleteI appreciate your prayers...I really need them, and your wise words, on the REAL. It's really hard for me to believe that there's nothing I can do to make things better the next time around. I'm so mistrustful of doctors and their tests and I can't help but feel like they're missing something..